Weeks 3 and 4 are in the books! My giving up has been going quite successfully, framing my mindset this way has worked out well for me so far. I truly believe we each have a different way of processing goals that will work most successfully for us and once you can trigger it, it is empowering.
The Bible verse I added, I read during one of my mornings where I have given up social media for an unplanned quiet time in the morning. It really spoke to me and it’s been my go to thought when I need to “reset” throughout my day. I have been “hoping for what I don’t have yet”….and it’s still 48 weeks out. In truth I don’t have any specifics about what the end result will be.
I’m giving up debt-but even though I have a ball park number, I have no idea what the final result will be, so I am “patient as I wait for it”.
I’m giving up my mornings from quick social media checks to have some quiet time with my Father, but I’m never sure how that time will go so I am “patient as I wait for it”.
I am giving up sugars and carbohydrates, except for an average of 25 net grams of carbs a day (this places my body into a “fat burning” mode instead of the standard “glucose/carb burning” mode). I have no “goal amount” of weight to lose. I don’t have a specific body fat number in mind. I’m just working out in the mornings after my quiet time, to whatever I (or my 14 month old daughter, if she wakes up that early) feel in the mood for that day and tracking my fat intake to make sure I’m getting enough. I weigh in once a week and I’m stepping back from needing to be a certain amount lost, or total amount lost by type mind set and just watching my body heal its cravings and find a natural new set point weight. Of course I’m hoping for what I don’t have yet – a stronghold on cravings and addictions to sugars/carbs, more muscle and less body fat, being able to slip into my wedding dress – but I’m learning to be “patient as I wait for it”. No quick fix, no promise to lose some crazy amount in a couple days but then returning to prior eating habits. This is an overhaul and I know it takes time, hope, and patience.
I’m giving up needing certain situations or reasons for writing. I’m hoping for what I don’t have yet – a comfortableness and a steadiness to the amount and frequency with which I write. I’m no where near where I want to be – but I am “patient as I wait for it”
I’m actually heading off to get my blood work done for my hypothyroid check up with my endocrinologist the first Monday in February. I’m interested in quite a few different outcomes from today – 1. Fasting. I ate my breakfast and coffee with coconut oil quite early (5 am) and the blood work is at 2:45 pm. On a carb based diet, I would not be able to go that long without becoming “hangry”, having a major headache, having to use a vast amount of willpower and just being miserable and then probably bingeing afterward. It’s about 1:30 pm right now and I’ve yet to feel the stirring of hunger pains. This is pretty standard for me now – I eat when I’m ready and when my body is moderately hungry, however I feel no need to snack or graze or eat throughout the day now. My “hangry” episodes have not occurred for close to 2 weeks now. No will power needed. No late night snack even thought about. 2. I’m curious how my results will come back – mostly in regards to my HDL/LDL ratios as well as my triglycerides (my doctor tests for more than just T3/T4 thyroid markers). 3. I’m curious how I will feel after giving blood – usually they give you juice (probably 3 days worth of carbohydrates for my current intake levels) when you are done if you feel out of it. I wonder if I will feel like I need it (of course I’ll take it if I do) or if I will feel any different at all.
Since I have an online account with my lab company, I’ll post some of the results from this session and prior sessions if I think there is anything worth seeing. I get my blood tested post pregnancy every 6 months now – so it will be very interesting to see the results 6 months versus 27 days in.
I also got my Keto Test Strips in – the strips I had at home kept giving me negative results and at first I just thought I wasn’t eating low carb enough and stopped even looking at them so I wouldn’t be discouraged. They aren’t extremely accurate anyhow and low carb / high fat is still healthy even if you aren’t completely in ketosis. Last week however, a thought occurred to me “I wonder if my strips were exposed to moisture and are not working anymore?” This can happen – especially if you leave them in the bathroom. So, I ordered another batch and tested for the first time since probably January 6 or so and not only was I in ketosis, but I had the highest level ketones in my body I have ever had since trying this type of lifestyle before. It was just this huge reminder to stop obsessing about outcomes and where I am and just keep going day in and out, even if it is only a small victory that day – the sum of those small victories – if you are “patient” will give you the results your are “hoping” for (see how I did that?)
All in all, as I sip on my green tea, during my lunch at work – I feel so blessed for these four weeks of my life. I feel calm, centered, loved and blessed. I’m in a job that fits my personality style much more so than before, I’m being challenged financially, spiritually, physically and emotionally and loving it.
Till next week….